Friday, May 18, 2007

Everybody's going through something

Quote of the day:
"Everybody's going through something." Phenomenon (1996), Nate Pope (Forest Whitaker)
Here's what I'm going through today:

1. Tired. (I woke up at 5:45 today and I don't normally do that so it was haaaard. I've gotten spoiled catchin' rides with M......and not having to ride the bus all the time)
2. Sick. (I've had a stomach virus for about a week. I feel vaguely queasy and unpleasant pretty much from the time I wake up to the time I go to bed. I've been nursing the hell out of some ginger tea).
3. Confusion. (There's been a lot of confusion in my life this week. Dealing with it without getting snappy or going off on anybody has been hard).
4. Feelings of inadequacy. (I feel like I can't keep up with things I should be able to handle).
5. Having to change plans. (I thought I had things all figured out and straight and now I gotta do a quick shuffle).

In the big picture these things aren't all that bad, they're just kind of annoying.

Question of the Day

Question of the Day (in Anderson's class)
If you had to give up one, which would you rather give up? TV or Music?

For me this would be an easy call...TV. I'm not that wild about TV to begin with, never really have been. Sitting around all the time just makes me ansty. I'll admit that I really like a couple of current shows like "The Office" or "http://www.scifi.com/battlestar/index.php" and "South Park". (I find now that I'm in grad school I need some mindless pursuits to counteract all that hardcore brain activity that I have to engage in all day). But honestly I've spent a good part of my life without TV and don't feel deprived because of it. Music on the otherhand...oh man I'd be lost without music. Music is a huge thing in my life...and unlike TV produces a shared space of communal interaction. Music is NOT something I could give up...TV I can take it or leave it.

making it up as we go

It's been one of those kinda weeks where I've had to just kinda make it up as I go. Felt like someone stirred up the water real good--things got murky real fast and half the time I didn't know which end was up. Every day was completely unlike the one before. Nothing went as expected. Nobody was consistent about anything. Nothing made any damn sense at all. They're talking a lot about inference over at Parkrose and frankly I've had to do a lot of inferring, and half of the time I don't know if it went all that well or not.

I've been reading this book by sister souljah...a little light reading, if you will (at least compared to Understanding by Design). it sure brings back some memories...it's been a long time since i've thought about new york.

Had kind of an interesting incident over the headscarf today. Sometimes that happens. Being different or standing out means you have to deal with shit sometimes, and sometimes people get nosy and get up in my affairs. I've been rockin' my headscarf playlist pretty continuously since about 2002 and frankly it's been awhile since anyone has seemed interested in it, and a long time since I've had to go into details... These days it's just second nature, but every now and then someone will come along and stir the pond up again. After mulling it over while eating lunch, I think I'm gonna gonna have to work on some kind of headscarf FAQ that I can print out and just carry around in my wallet. Would make things a bit easier me thinks.

Starting next week is "Project Hell Week". Everything in the world is due. It's like finals...but in Education you don't have exams, you just work on projects. My weekend is looking like a time to be proactive instead of a slacker, let's see if I can handle it.

I started writing poetry again after not doing it for quite some time. After writing tons of poems in college (since I didn't have to write tons of papers, I had some leftover energy for creative projects) and I wrote a lot while roaming the streets of Memphis. Then I got burned out and went through some hard times and quit writing in 2002, I was into a lot of other things at the time (like trying to survive) and kinda let my writing go by the wayside, and really this blog was about all the more writing I was doing in terms of composition. But lately, I've been in the mood. In a lot of classes that I've been observing they've been working on poetry, and that makes me want to get in on the mix. So I've been writing poems. It's cathartic and I feel like it really sharpens my observational capabilities. I'll have to post some stuff up here to bore the world with...after all what's the point of writing if it just stays on the D/L?

My brother is back in the mainland and everything's coming up roses, this crazy week does have a good end to it, if the beginning and middle were pretty shaky. word.

Thursday, May 17, 2007

PPS Student Teaching Job Meeting

I heard about this thing going on over at "the pink building" this week through the grapevine...

The Human Resources Dept. Invites PPS student teachers to an information meeting: Learn about our hiring process, Meet Principals, Get Interview Tips
Wednesday, May 16, 2007 (4-6pm)
Location: Blanchard Education Service Center - Board room 501 N Dixon St, 97227

Okay so maybe I'm not really a student teacher at PPS, and not graduating this year, but still it's darn useful to know what to expect. Later on I won't be so stressed out...it's always good to go get a little hustlin' in.

Thursday, May 03, 2007

thursday night raindrops

Glad this week's almost over. It's been hectic with a lot of stuff due at the same time. Like a lot of people I'll be glad to spend some time out the field for awhile and not have to do quite so much reading. Besides I miss being around kids.

It's been interesting though...I've had a lot of ups and downs in the past three weeks learning to cope with huge demands on my time and energy. And just when I was starting to adapt to this role, I get to mix it all up again and start over at a strange school. oy.

I'm looking forward to seeing li'l goat over the weekend and hitting the farmer's market. I need some recreation in my life...it's been awhile.